Deep down I'm happy. I'm full of joy. I'm satisfied.
Last night, God blew me away. I was lying in bed praying out loud, to keep my focus, when I kinda reached an end of myself. I'd exhausted my frustrations, I'd wondered out loud and begged God to lead me, I'd thanked Him. All of a sudden it hit me - I'm saved. Without thinking I said "I'm safe". And I knew it with every part of me, it was like God himself spoke the words. I had no fear - no fear of sin, death and no worries. I just laid there, tears streaming down my face, grinning, just basking in the enormity of the truth, and the joy I knew.
I sang last night, I worshiped God - I know Him. He is my God, and I am His child. He's not only my Lord, He's my Father, and last night He held me as I drifted off to sleep.